Our Angel Baby Boy Brandon James Carter

Life is hard as it is but on the 9th of march 2006 my life changed for the worst you could infact say that my life ended. my girlfreind said that she could not feel any movement from are little baby boy. We new that we were having a baby boy as we had a 4D scan. Straight away we went down to the hospital as we got their we explained to the midwife and she said that everything is ok and dont worry. She put my girlfreind on to a heart monitor and was their for quite some time as i was asking if everything was ok she said that she had to get someone eles to check, so yet again someone eles did exactly the same thing but this time the midwife called for the consultant to come and see us.

He was their straight away and put a monitor on to my girlfreinds belly. Taking what seemed like for ages he then turned round and said that he did not have enough room to work so he would like us to move to a side room so that he had more room. When we got in to the side room yet again he put a monitor on to my girlfreinds belly and did other things to only this time to turn round and say "you know what it is it's dead". The whole world paused at this moment i didnt know what to do or say, the only thing i could do was run away from it all my girlfreind said " Dont leave me" but i had to get out of there. i started to run not knowing where i was going just running as i got to the stairs it was as if they wasnt their i jumped down the whole flight untill i got to the bottom. Still running i got to the front of the hospital entrance out and across the road as nothing mattered to me not even my life, by now i was in pain i could feel my chest hurting very close to passing out but stil i ran and still not knowing where i was going.

I came to a holt realising that i was at my mothering law's it was then that i realised that i needed someone to help me and calm me down not that this happend. We got in to the car and was taken back to the hospital, it was lucky that i caught my mothering law as she had just recived a call from the labour ward explaining what had happened and that shelley my partner was calling for her mother. As we got back to the hospital i was hoping that it was all a dream and that i would wake up but no this was real, when we got back we were just left alone in the hospital side room which felt like for ever. Time passed and then a midwife came in and explained what had to be done and that we would be moved to a quieter place, as it is not nice to be reminded of what had just happened by hearing babys on the ward so we were moved over to the delivery suite. I know it is hard to find the words to say when something like this happens but all people could say was well i bet you have guesed it allready thats right all they could say was that they were sorry and that they know how we feel. How can they know how we feel after what had just happened, so much going round in my head thinking why us what did we do wrong but the thing is you could as yourself questions all the time and still not get the answer that you want. Whilst we were over on the delivery ward we was told now that my partner had to be induced such along time beeing induced midwifes were starting there shifts ending them and starting them yet again and could not belive that we were still their.

Our son was born sleeping weight 3lb 6oz and this was the time when i broke down as it should be the best time of your life waiting for your little one to arrive safely but for me and my partner this did not happen. We was told that we had the option for a postmortem to find out why our baby was born sleeping but we decided against it as Brandon came in to the world as a whole and would leave that way too, but later we were told that this would not have to happen anyway as they found the reason why.

A true-knot in the umbillical cord was the cause. We are only a young familly and cant belive what we have had to go through aswell as our 4 year old daughter who was so looking forward to meeting her baby brother and looking after him aswell as mummy and daddy. We arranged for a private funneral by S.A Evans in Hereford Herefordshire Brandon had the best that you can as we had a horse drawn carrage pulled by two beautifull black arrabs with tall standing plumes and i will be honnest that on the day of Brandons funneral the whole estate where we live and the whole town for that matter stood still in shock to see such a small coffin being drawn to the church and cemetry. Even workers of a new Asda site stoped work to show their respect. There is a lot more that i could say but wish to end hear.

BRANDON JAMES CARTER HAS HIS OWN WEB SITE THAT I WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO VISIT IT IS A WONDERFULL SITE TO VISIT AND I WOULD LIKE PEOPLE TO LEAVE A MESSAGE IN THE LOG BOOK THANKYOU FOR READING MY STORY AND PLEASE VISIT BRANDONS WEB SITE. THE ADDRESS IS....... http://www.freewebs.com/brandon-james-carter

THIS WEB SITE IS REALY NICE AND I KNOW THAT IT HAS HELPED PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN IN THE SAME SITUATION TO KNOW THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE.

By James & Shelley

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