Bought a book, and started going to counselling
So I had my first counselling session today. The counsellor was really nice, and it turned out she works for a pregnancy loss helpline as well so she's had experience helping women with baby loss. It was great to finally be able to start letting it out. I left feeling a bit teary as it brought a lot of stuff up but it was definitely worth going. I'm glad I got over my reluctance and finally started!!
I also purchased a book called "Empty Cradle Broken Heart", and it's fantastic. It's like someone got into my heart and wrote down everything I feel and have felt about losing MJ. It's a really good tool for moving forward because it lets you know what to expect, and it lets you know that you aren't alone. It's written in a way that makes it very easy to relate to. One thing that has struck me from the book is that in one of the quotes from a woman who has experienced baby loss, she says that she's gotten to a point where the loss is not her whole focus, but the absence of that child from her life is always there.
Um yeah, just wanted to share that.
Hope everyone is doing ok.