That's just how I feel right now, when I should be excited. We are taking the kids away next week to Disney World in florida for a weeks long vacation. Alyssa who is 5 has been talking about the trip nonstop for over a month now. Brady won't really remember the trip since he is so young, but it will be nice for us all to get away for a while.....the sad part......I realised that Disney world is called the most magical place on earth and my little TJ will never be a part of that magical fun. I had to go to the cemetery today to have a good cry (which is still a few times a week, even after 2 years). I want him to experience Mickey Mouse and all the attractions, but that will never be. I'll have to pack a few of his pictures to take with me, to pull out and look at whenever I feel the need, but it still just isn't the same.

Bridget

Aww Bridget, huge hugs sweet.
TJ will be with you, in your heart and as long as you know that, that will be all that matters, have fun for him, and take this oppurtunity to live like a child for a few days.
Hope you and your family have an awesome time

Take care
Jacqui

Oh honey - i cam understand your sadness and frustration.

I don't have much to add to what has been said above - I hope you find a way to be able to enjoy your time away with your family

((hugs))

Big big hugs hun
Good on ya for visiting him and having the cries you need hun.
I am sure you will find something that just says "buy me" for his gravesite!
Have fun and its ok to feel like he is missing out! Bet he is watchin from above and really pleased you are all going

awww tears....
Biggest hugs to you honey.
I hope that even with that sadness you will find enough within to have a wonderful time, and hey if you have to take a piture of bub so be it! And going to see him and crying a few times a week two years down is just fine, don't let anyone else tell you otherwise, You are not alone on that one.
Biggest Hugs, I hope that you do have a wonderful time and take heaps of pikkies to share with us.

aww Bridget... tears here too Hun. Like the others have all said, it is perfectly okay to feel the way you do. I felt the same way when i went to the big santa parade up in Auckland for last xmas. It really got to me that Julia would never be around to see that or enjoy the special times that we get to share as a family. I always take a photo of me and DH with Julia with us where ever we go, it helps to make me feel like she is there with us. Try to have a wonderful time with your earthly angels and remember that your heavenly angel is always with you, no matter where you go.


BTW... am incredibly(sp) jealous of you for getting to go to disney world