It's not like there's anything significant about the 19th of November. So why is it every month on the 19th my thoughts are full of what happened on the 19th of June? I mean I think of Trinity every day, thats a given, but the 19th is like a cruel reminder of when it all went so horribly wrong (not that I need reminding, but I'm sure you know what I mean). Will this happen every month for years to come? will the 19th of every month always be like this? or do the months turn into years (if you know what I mean)? Everything is so different, I'm so different, I'm just having a tough day because as you know it's the 19th. I'm on one of those steep climbs on this rollercoaster ride that we've all been forced to be on, and I think it's going to be a long one, what with Christmas right on the tails of 6 months. Thanks for the space to vent. Take care everyone.

Hi Manda,
Big (((HUGS))) I know how you feel, I dread the 13th of every month as well.

Take care
Jacqui

Yeah, I dread 4days, the 30th, 31st ,3rd,28th. The Day Eden was born, passed, buried and due.
I just seem to fall to peices then, and actually Wednesdays in general I hate and spend most Wednesdays at the cemetery from about 9.30am- 2pm.

Mine is the 16th. That is my stay in bed day. I really hate when someone asks me innocently what the date is when I have to say the 16th.

Same here, not liking the 20th. Especially tomorrow since it will be the 20th and it will be the 6 month mark of Tyler's birthday. Really dreading tomorrow!!!
Bridget

Thanks Jenn-
I just may need a chat
Bridget

Manda, as you know I think if you, Corey and Trinity not only every day, but especially on the 19th of every month too. I wish that i could only do more than send you a text message of support every month.
I know next month is going to be hard, especially with Xmas round the corner, but i know you have so much love and support at home to help you get through the pain.
Thinking of you always big sis
Shells xxx

Hi Manda

It's the same for me. the 19th is when we found out Jenson was not with us anymore, and the 21st is when she was born I find these days so difficult, amongst others

Thinking of you darling

Love and Hugs

Nikki x

Hi Manda,
The 14th of each month is really hard for me. I watch the clock and relive every hour of THAT DAY!!! I'm thinking of you and the other wonder ladies on this site.
Love Trudy

Thanks Trudy,
The 19th of every month still hits me when it rolls around, sometimes it gets till the end of the day before I realise it, but 1 1/2 years on, it's getting easier.
(((hugs))) to you.

hi all,

21st is a day that still is hard for me , along with ( 24th) xmas eve was the day we had Ethan's funeral, 15 April-Easter weekend was his due date.

even though I think of him all the time, these dates will always bring memories of Ethan.

Big hugs and thinking of you all.

Rachel.