Thinking today of you, your family and little Trinity Clair. I hope the day is kind to you.

(((((BIG HUGS)))))

Claire

Hi Manda, I am thinking of you all today too, 6 months already. Hope the day is gentle on you.

Luv Ally

Hi Manda,

I hope your day is survivable. Do you find it still feels so raw? I feel like it was only a few weeks ago that we lost Amelie. For me its like getting on with life has been kind of frozen/stuck. They say time does heal....

Thank you so much to you and your husband for setting up this website as it is very good for me and obviously lots of others.

Best wishes,
Melanie

PS We are finding it really hard too with Xmas coming up without our baby Amelie. Big hugs to you.

Big hugs for you babe, Hope the day was kind to you.

Huggles

Kim

Thanks for all your thoughts. The day wasn't too bad. I had to work and was too busy really to think about anything. As per usual, I think the build up was worse than the actual day. In saying that, I've been a moody cow for weeks, and the last few days have been the worst, could it be that I'm supressing the pain with anger? or should I put it down to hormones?

Melanie, it's a different kind of raw for me now. I don't feel like the person I used to be, my world is completly different, I'm also not the person I should have been (if Trinity would have lived), I suppose I'm still getting used to the person that I have become. I don't know that time heals so much, in that sense theres still a big gaping wound, but I have learned to live with the pain. I went through about a month when I didn't cry, I felt like there was something wrong with me, but I guess I can rely on grief to stick around. I don't know if any of that made sense. I feel like I'm still waiting for the penny to drop so I finally 'get it', I know, I'm in for an eternity of waiting. Sorry, just babbling now.

Take care everyone, and thankyou.

Big (((HUGS))) Manda.

A little tribute true and tender,
Just to show that we remember.
Time may pass and fade away
But memories of you will always stay

Take care
Jacqui

Hi Manda
I am thinking of you too. I'm glad that your day wasn't too bad.

I know what you mean about being a different person now, I feel that way too. It's funny that people expect us to "get over" the grief at some point, but I think it's more about learning to live alongside the grief and pain, and in that, becoming a different and stronger person. It will never go away, and it's certainly not like some kind of illness that time will heal.

Take care of yourself and your little bubba. When is your next scan?

Alana

Thanks again everyone,
Next scan is on Thursday, will keep you posted.
Take care.