One year ago today the most beautiful angel was placed in my arms and my life was changed forever

One year ago today my sweet boy Riley was born sleeping and no one remembered, did his life mean that little.
On the one day that I really needed support ..Nothing... the day was already painful enough
I am so hurt and so angry and very very alone and I feel so very sad for my boy

A poem I wrote for Riley

Happy birthday my little angel son
Today up in heaven you turn one

I have a little present, just for you
And a little cupcake with a candle on it too

As I blow the candle out I will wish to have you here
But I know this cannot be so instead I’ll shed a tear

I will sing you happy birthday as the day comes to an end
Then I’ll pray for my heart so it may start to mend

I’ve missed you oh so much this whole year through
And my love for you as always is so strong and true

I dreamed of your 1st birthday since before you were born
Now that dream sits here broken and torn

My little darling it wasn’t meant to be this way
You’re supposed to be here with me on you birthday

Oh Jacqui, I'm so sorry. Please accept my apology. I really didn't forget about Riley's angel day, but what I did forget was that you are a day ahead of me over there.

I'm thinking of you sweetie, and sending big hugs your way. I'll say extra prayers tonight for you and Riley (as today is april 13, over here).

I'll keep you close in my thoughts, prayers and heart
Bridget

Jacqui, I am sorry I didn't post anything yesterday, but I had been thinking of you and hoping that the day was gentle on you.

The poem you wrote to your little angel is beautiful.

Thank you,

It wasn't you guys, it was the family and friends that I thought would remember that did not, maybe they did remember but did not say anything, but I was meant to have a little get together, which of course did not happen. It just really hurt that no one thought to contact us just to even say yes we do remember.

Thank you for thinking of Riley and me yesterday, that really means alot to me.

Jacqui, I apologise that although I knew your little man's birthday was coming up, I didn't know which day it actually was. I'm sorry that your family and friends let you down also.

Thinking of you today (even though it is a day too late) and sending you some big Trans Tasman hugs!

Thinking of you and your family Jacqui - So sorry I'm a day late

What a beautiful and special poem you have written for Riley.

Sending you great (((((BIG HUGS)))))

Claire

Hi Jacqui,
I have to joint the list of apologies, I had the wrong day in my head, I'm so sorry. I'm doubly sorry the people you thought would remember said nothing (or couldn't muster the courage to say anything). The poem you wrote for Riley is lovely. I'll bet he loves his Mum as much as she loves him. Heaps of luv n hugs to you and your family.

Jacqui

I too am sooo sorry, i usually remember but hadnt been online till now so didnt pick it up. Big hugs babe.

Your poem had me in tears it is gorgeous.

Huggles

Kim

Jacqui I had been thinking about you and Riley but was not sure of dates so I am sorry for missing the day. I am shocked to hear no one else remembered and it made me think I will try to 'prime' people to remember so that does not happen on Amelie's first birthday.

Your poem is beautiful and made me cry.

Happy Birthday Riley, you will never be forgotten.

Love and hugs,
Melanie

Thank you very much everyone for your kind thoughts.

I thought I would start feeling better once the day had passed but no, I still feel really sad, these last couple of days have been really hard. Riley should be here and he's not.
I just want to hold him again.

That is only natural that you want to hold Riley and that you still feel very sad for what you have lost.
Big hugs Jacqui.