(((HUGS))) Trudy. TTC after a loss is a long hard rollercoaster but all worth it in the end. I'm so sorry your having to deal with the dissapointment of AF at this time of the year. Like Jenn I charted my cycle, it gave me a sense of control and empowerment.
It's ok to cry yourself silly, we've all done it, and still do, just not quite as much. I am so glad you feel comfortable coming here. Like the others have said, we are REALLY all here for you. What you said about being suprised by your grief reminded me about the story 'A Mother without a Child', at the end she says,
Quote:
Even as I struggle with the sadness that the loss of my son has unleashed in my life, I am comforted by the way my grief returns with faithful potency every time I fear I may be forgetting
, it's so true, in a way, when the grief hits me like that it is strangly comforting. After a while for me I've come to be quite matter of fact about my situation when explaining it to others, it almost makes me feel like I'm not emotional about it anymore, but that grief comes when you least expect it,
Quote:
with faithful potency
.
Anyway, I'm rambling now. Take care of yourself hun, sounds like your DH is helping in that area, nice to hear.
