Manda,
I'm so sorry you had a rough day.
I guess its the road we all have to go down after losing our precious babies. No one can do it for us can they?
I just want to encourage you to grieve all you have to and don't let anyone stop you,its so important in the early days.
I know it sucks and its so unfair,yes you should be looking after your baby,not having to grieve for her as well as worry about everything else thats going on.
Don't worry your body will do what its supposed to when its ready to do it!
I know that probably all you want to do is be pg again,I know how that feels and its so scary,I used to think what if I'm too old and can never get pg again!
But it did happen and it will for you too.
Just try to get through one day at a time,thats what I used to say to myself and I would really encourage you to join a support group and get as much support as you can from family and friends.
I am here for you anytime,email me or add to me to instant messenger.
Thinking of you