Hi guys,

Well it is the next few days I should know if i am pg this cycle or not, trouble is I don't feel pg and with Amelie I did. So i'm trying not to have ANY expectations at all but you know how it is...

Is there anyone out there still TTC?Is there anyone out there at all?

Have been crying alot today. I know its cos I'm tired, then my resilience to sadness is down and now I cannot type for the tears. It is just SO hard. Amelie would be nearly six months old by now and I am desolate.

Sorry for the me-vent.
Melanie

Hey Melanie, you're definitely not alone! We too are ttc, although at the moment waiting for AF to start before we can try (my first cycle post m/c).
I too have had a very teary day today, not sure why - maybe like you I'm tired, maybe it's because my first midwife appt was supposed to be today, or because Maya started back at daycare and I ran into a friend who didn't know about the m/c and had to tell her.

All the very best of luck for this cycle - I hope that you will have your little bean and be cheering me on from the sidelines when AF finally does start and we can get back into it. And if not, then we will be in the trenches together.

Thinking of you hun,
Emma

Just letting you know I'm thinking of you and have everything crossed for you.

Take care
Jacqui

Awww Mel, I'm sorry that you are having a down day

((hugs))

Oh Melanie - I'm so sorry - I didn't see your post until this morning. How are you feeling today? It must be unbearably hard to be without little Amelie. I don't know how you get by as well as you do. And I know TTC is all the more stressful for you because you really want a sibling for Amelie.

Please know that I am thinking of you.

(((((BIG HUGS)))))

Claire

Thanks everyone for your support.

Well I must have been both tired and premenstrual last night (NOT a good combo!).

Then I was dreaming as I was waking this morning about climbing mountains (well big hills really) and then in the dream I went to the toilet and found my period had arrived. then I woke up and yep, AF was just there 'about to happen' if you know what I mean!

This was right on CD 28 and not late like last time (on CD30 which did my head in) so now i just feel tired and a bit sad but okay because my intuition was right, i was not pg. Does that make sense?

I feel like i have a whole lot more of 'letting Amelie go' to do and I just need lots of time to get my head in the right space and then i am sure (cos i am an optimist)we will be pg easily. (but I do hope it is soon).

melanie

Big (((Hugs))) to you Melanie.
I'm hoping it happens for you really soon

Take care
Jacqui

Hi Melanie

I'm really sorry to hear that AF turned up this morning. Good to know your cycles are back to normal again though.

Perhaps you are right about needing some more time to just concentrate on Amelie and your feelings for her. She was such a part of your life for all those months and still is now. Hopefully when you do get that BFP (really soon), you'll be ready to share your time between Amelie and your new little bub.

Thinking of you and sending (((((BIG HUGS)))))

Oh and glad you like Weboggle - I mostly use the name Claire if ever you are playing at the same time as me (usually evenings)

Claire

Sorry to hear about AF Melanie - PMT does suck big time.

I'm sure Amelie is there watching over you, and she will be there watching over her baby brother or sister too when the time is right.

Take care,
Emma