And for some reason I can't stop crying. Maybe I am having a hormone surge or something

Monday was just a comedy of errors from the time I woke up and the toilet blew a pipe all over the floor, to the car not starting and then just got worse and worse until I eventually gave up and went to bed.

I thought yesterday would be better - I had my 4D scan booked. But the lady rushed thru it so quickly that even the 2D pics are fuzzy and the 4D ones are a complete waste of time. Have sent them a nasty email telling them how unimpressed I was - she didn't even check all the growth things that she is supposed to.

By the time Willie came home I was in tears in the kitchen and Maya was wandering round a bit bewildered. I just couldn't stop crying, and I am so scared that this is a bad sign - I have clinical depression so am at increased risk of PND, and if I feel this bad before the babies are born, how am I going to cope afterwards?

Sorry, just needed a vent.

Hi Emma - So sorry to hear that you are feeling low this week. I completely understand what you are saying about life lately because I have felt very similar for most of the last year. My DH and I both feel that life has been very tough and simply ironic (like the Alannis Morrissette song) over the past 12 months or so. Everytime we think we're about to turn a corner, we are thrown some new crisis or problem to deal with.

Anyway, my best advice (on what seems to be a good day for us) is to hold onto your faith. You seem like an amazing lady to me and I am sure that despite feeling like you are overwhelmed, you will be able to find the strength to get through. My DH reminded me last week that if all I did each day was get to the next then I was doing fabulously. Life is just REALLY hard sometimes especially when you are pg and hormonal.

Please feel free to vent away on here or even send me a private message/email if you like. Sending you ((((((BIG HUGS)))))) and hoping that today and each day from now on are much kinder to you.

Claire

Big hugs babe.

Like Claire said feel free to vent here and know I am here if you need to chat.

Huggles
Kim

Oh babe, I know those days all too well.

Last Wednesday I had a god-awful day, and was so upset, my DH was home from work not knowing WHAT to do.

Sometimes things get on top of us, and we just get SO overwhealmed by it all, we just break down, and then everything else just seems to go wrong.

Hope things look up soon hun ((hugs))

Thanks for all your kind thoughts, it helps to be able to get it out, and hard as he tries Willie just doesn't GET it.

My Huggies playmat arrived today, have to focus on the small things I guess...

Emma, sorry to hear you are having a tough time. If you need anything give me a call, I am only 5 mins away. I can come and sit with you, cry with you or laugh with you. PLEASE let me know what I can do to help.

Will PM you my number.

Take Care
Luv Ally

Hope today was a better day for you!!!!
I totally know where your coming from hun..I had one of thoses days bout 2 weeks ago and boy DP didn't know what hit him when he got ome form work!!!
Hugs to you whenever you need it!!! Must be hard work looking after maya and growing to beauties!!!

Thanks

Today had a bit of excitement - I got a card to pick up a parcel from the Postshop and when I picked it up it was a beautiful card and outfits for the girls from a friend I met on the Huggies forum. The first time I met her was right when I was m/c our angel baby and she was so great to me. So it was a totally unexpected surprise which made my day (and my week!).

Wow that was nice of her.

How are you feeling now?

Wow that was a lovely idea.

Glad to hear you are feeling better.

HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND.

Luv ally

Hi Emma, I am sorry to hear you have been feeling very down and hope that things get easier emotionally for you soon.

Are you getting enough rest?

Thinking of you.

Thanks!

Feeling a bit better - still very up and down. Had a nap this afternoon which helped, and have been trying to take it easy. I see the OB on Monday and am totally prepared for a lecture on how I should have finished work by now...

You'll probably feel better once you finish work, be a bit more relaxed.

Thinking of you hun ((hugs))

Well I have to say that Akld XRay are trying to make up for their sucky performance last week - I got a reply to my email today from the doctor in charge and they are going to repeat the scan free of charge tomorrow. Not 100% convinced that he actually took my concerns seriously - he didn't seem to think there was anything wrong with the diagnostic part of the scan (they rushed it and missed out half the things they were supposed to check) but he admitted that the 4D was useless. But when I rang to book the scan for tomorrow the lady admitted that they had originally booked me for 45 minutes but then someone had overbooked and they were busy so trying to rush thru their list...