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lizybee
Joined: Fri Feb 13, 2009 2:38 pm Posts: 5
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poems to asia
If I could live that month again I’d never let you go I’d swaddle you against my body and keep you safe and warm you’d know I was always there
if I could live that month again I’d be much more assertive I’d tell rather than ask and investigate and question and read and read and read you’d know I was doing all I possibly could
If I could live that month again I’d be all that a mother should be I’d read your needs, anticipate and understand what your body was feeling you’d know that I was she
If I could live that month again I’d do much more than I did I’d have no regrets or guilt and the questions would not exist you’d forgive me all
if I could live that month again I’d be able to save your life wouldn’t I? I’d have you now, a little girl and life would be so very different you’d be 3
if only I could live that month again
25 feb'07
Don’t tell me how lucky I am, Don’t remind me of what I have, The loss can never be replaced And your words only bring me more pain
I should not deny my grief Or forget what I don’t have Please don’t try to help me by denying her importance I know you mean well but you make me feel self indulgent
I feel exhausted and can hardly stand Grief is so physical, it tears me down The tears don’t bring relief My baby is gone
She would be five, starting school Getting excited and bubbling with enthusiasm What would she look like? Can I see her in my children?
I wish I could believe in an after life That I will meet her one day Feel her skin, her hair, hold her tight Tell her how sorry I am
How sorry I am only touches the surface I’m so sorry the words don’t describe it Could I have saved you my little one? If only I’d known then what I know now, maybe…
Could I have saved you the suffering you endured? When I look at the photos and see your wounds How uncomfortable the medical machines must have been The guilt is huge and unforgiving and the blame overwhelming
I should have done more, I should, I was your mother No one should protect you more, It was my job and I failed you How can I ever be at peace?
Did I do something wrong when you were in my womb? Was I selfish and stupid, causing you harm? If only I could turn back time
12 feb'09
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Dragonfly
Joined: Mon Sep 18, 2006 11:30 pm Posts: 666
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Re: poems to asia
Oh Liz your poems are beautiful!
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mrssloppers
Joined: Sat Sep 16, 2006 5:16 pm Posts: 169 Location: Hamilton
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Re: poems to asia
Beautiful Poems Liz,
They brought tears to my eyes!! Im positive that Asia is so Proud of her Mummy for writting such wonderful Poems for her.
Thank you for sharing with us.
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An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby’s birth and whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for the Earth"
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