Sucky, sucky, sucky, sucky!
Over the past couple of days a good friend of mine has been miscarrying her wee bub
I feel so awful for her, it's so unfair, and it's brought back all of these memories that were just sitting there below the surface for me.
I went with her yesterday for a scan to see what was going on and the sonographer was a total cow and refused to say anything about what she had seen. I know enough about u/s to make out the gestational sac with no yolk sac or fetal pole but the sonographer made her wait until the radiologist had sent the report to her doctor. The report was inconclusive, as were her hCG results so it became a waiting game. Overnight she started passing clots etc. so I guess it's over.
I remember the waiting so well, it was the hardest part, knowing but not knowing, and no one able to give you any answers, just having to wait and see. I really hate that she is going thru this, that anyone has to go thru this, and I really want to be able to support her thru it, but I'm not sure if I'm the best person for that at the moment as I still have so many unresolved issues of my own.
Sucky, sucky, sucky, sucky!
Thanks for letting me ramble.