Oh man I wish I had of had pre warning, they had a case on there of a still born baby and man that brought back the memories, I was trying so hard not to cry.

Yep I saw it too - so hard. My best friend was watching too and she texted during the ads to say sorry and that she was in tears watching it and thinking of me. It never gets easier does it. I was thinking of all you ladies tonight.

No doesnt get any easier, I dont expect it will, we just learn to live with it.

I was going to post about this today. Three moments really came back to me, being told 'I'm sorry, theres no heartbeat', that final push and then holding my girl, I felt it all over again. It totally broke my heart, I wasn't prepared for it either, but you know what, I sat there and held back the tears and kept telling myself 'it's just a program', why on earth is that?. I knew if I looked at Corey it would have been game on, tears unstoppable, I think he felt the same because we both just sat there staring at the screen, not moving, even though for the rest of the show we laughed and commented. For some reason I don't feel like I should be breaking down at a mere program, it feels silly (although deep down I know it's not). I can't believe I feel like I should be past the grieving, how stupid is that, after all, we keep saying to each other it will be with us for life. Why do I feel like I shouldn't cry anymore, it almost feels silly.

I know what you mean Manda, I realised after a while that Angus & I were both sitting still, holding our breath, wondering who would be the one to say something to the other (and maybe waiting for the moment to pass so that we wouldn't have to open the door on all that pain again). Sometimes it's so easy to get on with the busyness of everyday life to cover the pain, and then, bam it hits you in the face again.

Rileys birth will always be so very fresh in my mind, but have to say I did not realise the rawness of the whole thing till watching Greys last night (if that makes sense).
His birth has actually been on my mind alot lately, considering I will be giving birth the day after his birthday, I'm not looking forward to being pregnant while I have to relive those days that led up to his birth.
I've been having some concerns, but I think I will post that another time in another place.

I still haven't watched it, need to catch up on a couple of episodes before that one, but just reading posts about it make me tear up...

Hugs to everyone.

I haven't seen it and now I won't, thanks for teh warning! I wish I had one for The Constant Gardener!