This week is my week from hell, just because it's Chloé's birthday on Friday and it's bringing it all back.
We went to antenatal classes last night. It was the second one, and she talked about inductions and toxaemia and epidurals and C sections.
I started crying a little when she was talking about early inductions. I didn't walk out of the room but I was close to doing it.
Then we went upstairs to visit the delivery room and she showed everyone the monitoring machine and the bed and the stirrups and all that and once again I was this close to walking outside..
It's just so hard...
I just keep having these thoughts in my head, "a year ago i was..."
well a year ago on Wednesday I was lying in bed at the clinic being induced.
I miss my little girl so much.
Good thing I have a box of tissues on my computer desk..
Seeing the MW this morning.